Wednesday, December 16, 2009
What's God Up To................?
I've shared that I have been going through a tough time. We are having some custody issues with Matt and who knows what the future holds for my family but I do know this. I am not going to give the enemy any more ground. He will not push my buttons anymore. I have wallered in this mess long enough. Heading toward depression is just feeding this disease. NO MORE! Today, I choose with all my heart and mind to BELIEVE God when He says, "Trust Me" or "This is not your battle" or "Are you listening to ME?" Yes, Sir, I DO, and yes Sir, I am.
Over a month ago I got a great book for Thanksgiving called Giving Thanks The Gift of Gratitude by M.J. Ryan. I read it during the Thansgiving season and it spoke volumes to me about living a life with a grateful heart. It had already put me in a mindset of being grateful and tackling each day with a sense of gratitude. I've enjoyed focusing on all the things I have to be grateful for and have thanked God over and over for each of them lately.
Then Tim and I were sitting on the couch one Saturday morning several weeks ago watching a few movies and started watching the movie Pay It Forward, a movie that stars Haley Joel Osment as a boy who launches a good-will movement, Helen Hunt his single mother, and Kevin Spacey as his social-studies teacher. When 11-year-old Trevor McKinney begins seventh grade in Las Vegas, Nevada, his social studies teacher Eugene Simonet gives the class an assignment to devise and put into action a plan that will change the world for the better. Trevor calls his plan "pay it forward", which can be described as a charitable pyramid scheme, based on good deeds rather than profit. "Paying it forward" means the recipient of a favor does a favor for a third party rather than paying the favor back. Anyway, I had seen it before but Tim had not so we watched again and it really hit me hard. I thought we all need to live like that.
Then last week I needed something urgently from our coporate office and sent an email with my request. My co-worker sent what I needed but at the end of her email she said, "Pay it Forward." I emailed her back and told her that Tim and I had just watched that movie. She said she did too and we both discussed the good in the movie and how we both sobbed watching it. But I thought how odd, to hear pay it forward again. So, at that point I thought I must be being led to do something on these lines.
Then yesterday I don't know what I was doing online but came across something that was almost like flashing at me......it's called 29 Gifts in 29 Days................It's a challenge to give to others.......and I've taken it. It's not all about giving tangible things by any means. It started from someone who was wrapped up in her own mess, disease and pity party.....when someone told her to give 29 gifts in 29 days.......take the focus off her. Very interesting story. Check it out on http://29gifts.org/
So, for whatever reason I see God doing something in me............and I'm here with an open heart to see what He's up to.
Oh, and yesterday was Day 1 of my 29 and I gave encouraging words to a co-worker. She is in our corporate office and it started with a business email and just a Merry Christmas at the end when she responded and we started talking back and forth. She has no family where she lives so was talking about not being as excited about Christmas as usual. In our talking we found out we had so much in common and have had so many of the same challenges / still do. I was so blessed through that.
My verse today is another one with God getting me through this trial.......
Peace I leave you; My peace I give you. I do not give as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
John 14:27
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Ooooops!........
But, here I am today. After going through a tough several days, I am DETERMINED not to waller in what I am going through. It will do me no good and will keep me depressed through this wonderful Christmas season. This is a season of "JOY" and that is how I want to live it. In joy. Believing God to get me through this and He be glorified through it.
So how is your shopping coming along? Don't ask about mine. A few things done but still lots to do. BUT, I'll get it done. Everyone have up their tree? I don't. I don't like that. I want it now. I have one up - my kitchen Christmas tree......I love it but I want my big one up in the den.
My daddy started his chemo today. I just talked to him and all went well. Thank you for all the prayers. Keep them up. We have to pray him through the next 6 months.
From my Christmas devotional......Preparing for Jesus
Listen: the light of Christmas shines into darkness! We should be the walking dead. What we deserve, in fact, is the absence of God - a cold and cosmic isolation - for this is our sin, that we chose to be gods in the place of God. In the day we disobeyed we began to die. We should, therefore, be dwelling in the land of deep darkness, mistrust, hatreds, hopelessness, finality, and death.
But here in a child comes God, the light! And light in darkness is a frightening thing. ("People loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil" John 3:19)
O my friend, a self-examination both humble and true most cause us to tremble before the Living God. Yes! - we will be "greatly troubled" at the appearing of angels.
But even as we feared, so do we rejoice when we hear the light say, "Don't be afraid. I have not come to punish but to give you life. I am no judge. I am the Savior born for you."
Life instead of death? That is a wonder! And the wonder is all the more intense because death had been expected - because death had been right!
The mercy of God? Is not this a dazzling wonder? And isn't Christmas wonderful after all?
Friday, December 4, 2009
It's Snowing in Houston today........
Thursday, December 3, 2009
One of my favorite Christmas Songs........
A Strange Way to Save the World
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Anticipation...................
Then, the fun, fun, fun memories of my kiddos going through the very same thing. I didn’t own my first video camera until the year Matt was born (14 years ago this Christmas) so Steph and Shan escaped the Oscar Performances until they were 12 and 5……..but I didn’t make them go through the “wake up” performance – just captured them opening presents and all the joy they experienced.
All this waiting…………what are we waiting for?
So, what am I waiting for? What are you waiting for? Ultimately if you know Jesus, you are waiting for Him to return and call His Church / His Bride / His People HOME!
I am currently doing a Christmas devotional called Preparing for Jesus by Walter Wangerin, Jr. which started yesterday all the way through 12 days after Christmas. My dear friend and former boss, Beth gave it to me one year and I haven’t done it in some time. I am already enjoying it so much.
Excerpt from Preparing for Jesus:
Mark 13: 32 thru 37……..
32 "No one knows about that day or hour, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father. 33 Be on guard! Be alert! You do not know when that time will come. 34 It's like a man going away: He leaves his house and puts his servants in charge, each with his assigned task, and tells the one at the door to keep watch. 35 "Therefore keep watch because you do not know when the owner of the house will come back—whether in the evening, or at midnight, or when the rooster crows, or at dawn. 36 If he comes suddenly, do not let him find you sleeping. 37 What I say to you, I say to everyone: 'Watch!' "
The word Advent is derived from the Latin adventus, which means “the approach” or “the arrival”. The verb is advenio: “I arrive. I come. I am coming.” Who is coming?
As a season of the Christian year, Advent is ancient. It goes back at least to the middle of the 6th century. Already then it’s observance defined not only the ONE who was coming, but also those who were faithfully and self-consciously waiting. It defined the peculiar people who looked forward to the coming of the One. Who is coming? Who awaits him?
The Son of man, He is coming. Jesus. That one. Him. And we are the people who await Him. You and I. Since it was for us He died, we are the ones who wait in love. And since He ascended to heaven with promises to return, we wait in faith – for at the next and final Advent, Jesus will take us as friends, as brothers and sisters into His house forevermore.
Finally, then, how shall we prepare? In these days, while yet there are days and time, by what activity should we make ourselves ready?
Why, by meditating on His first coming – for though the future may be hidden from us the past is not, and the one can teach us the other.
The story of the birth of Jesus is open before us. We have a spiritual and holy account of the time when God Himself directed preparations for that first coming of His Son into the world.
Behold, I bring you good news of great joy!!
So let us enter the story one more time. In this present season of Advent let us experience the Infant’s Advent in the past and so make ourselves ready for the Advent of the Lord of Glory in the future.
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas.......
Every day, I want to think upon the TRUE MEANING OF CHRISTMAS more than what we have made it to be......more than the presents.......more than the stress.......more than the commercialism.....more than the financial burden. I have some fun plans to blog each day with a new thought upon the "true meaning of Christmas"!!! and something from our family.
My biggest prayer right this moment is for you and your family to experience the true joy of Christmas.....the real and most meaningful gift ever given. Jesus. He is it. He is the reason for the season for sure.
Last year I was keeping JD and MacKenzie, my two precious grandkids during the Christmas season. JD and I were walking around looking at all KK's decorations when we were looking at my favorite navity scene I have. My mom gave it to me years ago and it was my very first one to own as an adult. I picked up the baby Jesus in the manger and was telling JD about His birth when he took it out of my hand and said, "oh KK, He is so beautiful." Yes, HE is. I hope you can see the BEAUTY in the wonderful birth of our Savior!
“In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was with God in the beginning. The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us. We have seen his glory, the glory of the One and Only, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth.”
John 1:1-2, 14
May He dwell close to you and yours this Christmas Season.
We love you.
Monday, November 23, 2009
47 is much too young to leave.......
Sherry Suzette Wingard was born August 21, 1962 and died much too young, at 47, after a long hard fight with cancer, on November 17, 2009. She is survived by her husband, Wallace Wingard, 2 children, daughter, Samantha and son, Clay, and 2 step daughters, Kristie and Samantha. She also leaves behind 3 grandchildren which is what breaks my heart. She was exactly 7 months, 14 days older than me.
Tim and I were scheduled to fly to Miami on Thursday after work to head to the final NASCAR race of the season. We were looking so forward to it and to hanging with some of our best buds, Grant and Tiffinee. I had had a pretty stressful and trying couple of weeks with Daddy’s cancer / surgery / on-going set backs, so this trip was just what I needed. BUT, after learning her memorial service would be on Saturday, my wonderful husband, family man he is, knew that we had to lay aside our wants and desires and do what we needed to do. So we headed up early Friday to Ruston, Louisiana with Tim’s brother and sister-in-law.
Friday night was the viewing and we all hung out at the Funeral Home and went to get something to eat. Saturday morning we got up and headed to Tim’s mom’s to pick her and John up so we could all ride together. The service was in the church where Tim’s grandparents and so much of his family grew up in. St. Rest Baptist Church…..a small little country church with such history. We were looking at the picture in the foyer of the 150th reunion and I thought about all of the lives that gone to that church, was saved in that church, baptized in that church. Those married and those buried at that church. The service was nice and hit me in a particular way about what we leave behind…….our legacy……but afterwards is where it got tough.
The family walked across the two lane road to the cemetery where other family members were buried, including Suzette’s mom, Linda, who was also Tim’s mom’s twin sister. Suzette wanted to be cremated her ashes scattered across “the creek”, a place where she and Wally had a camp and hung out with all their friends just about every weekend. Anyway, they also buried an urn for symbolism I guess. Her son Clay had already dug the hole for the urn and we all gathered in the dreary, drizzly, cold to say our final good-bye’s. As he started covering the urn with dirt, I started thinking again about death and how we are not promised tomorrow. I thought of her young kids (in the 20’s) without a mom, and those grandkids……………those precious little boys!
As he finished up Suzette’s son-in-law, Stevie sat down on a bench with Samantha, his wife and Suzette’s daughter, and started playing and singing a song he wrote. Samantha was holding the paper with freshly written words on it as her husband played and sang a beautiful song about choosing heaven on earth………. in how we live.
Backing up, Tim, myself and some of the kids went to Ruston, LA this past summer for a family reunion. Stephanie had given me a beautiful book for Mother’s Day of her family and my precious grandkids. Anyway, Suzette and I were sitting there looking though the book and she kept telling me I had such a precious family……that my grandkids were adorable and then went on to tell me that that was what she was living for right now. She said she loved her husband and she loved her kids, but they had memories of her to last forever. She started telling me about how those 3 grandsons (all under 4) would have a hard time really remembering her and she was treasuring every moment she could with them right now. She knew she was getting closer to her appointed time to depart this earth. I remember as clear as day how that hit me then.
Now, here I am standing and listening to a beautiful song but all of a sudden standing and playing right beside me were her precious, energetic little grandsons. I was taken back to her words……watching them play not really knowing what all was happening around them. They were the three cutest little boys in the world. I was totally beside myself thinking about it. I can’t explain those moments. The words of the song……little boys playing……..a sad goodbye. Would they remember? It made me think about my JD, almost 5 and MacKenzie, who just turned 2. They love their KK and I love them so much that I can hardly stand it. I want to treasure each and every second I have with them. Life is so short. We are here but a breath………..we are not promised tomorrow. Life happens so fast…….it goes so fast……..we go day in day out like little ants going ninety miles an hour. We don’t slow down and really take in life. But I am reminded again to do that now.
I have been blessed beyond words with my Tim, my family, and my friends…..some I see often, some I rarely see but still treasure the friendship tremendously. Growing up my mom always said to me, “live every day like it is your last, you never know when it might be.” Do I? Do you? If God called you home tomorrow, what would be remembered about you? Will you leave this earth with earthly treasures left behind or treasures not of this earth….but of the heart. Will you have run the good race? Will you have any regrets? Do you have anyone you need to forgive? Do you have anyone you need to say you’re sorry to? Have you told those you love that you love them…..really love them….or do you assume they already know that? Do you hold those kids, those grandkids and treasure that moment?
None of us know when the day is. No one but the Good Lord Himself knows……so make sure your life is right with God……live each and every day like it is your last. Treasure the gifts God has given you. Make sure those you love know it. Slow down, enjoy the moments, smell the roses! We only get to live this life on earth one time. Make yours count!!! Live a life of gratitude and thankfulness……because we all have so much to be thankful for.
I do know that I can honestly say that I am not ready to leave this earth. I only found my soul-mate and best friend, Tim, 5 short years ago. I want to have many years loving him and growing old with him. I want to see my kids grown, marry, and my grandkids grow up. I have so much more life I WANT to live. BUT, if for some reason God decides my appointed time is here tomorrow, I will leave this earth a very happy and fulfilled woman.
Friday, November 13, 2009
Praying for my Daddy......
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Prayers needed.....
1. I have been sick for 9 days. All stomach and head. Constant nausea. No appetite. At this point I feel extremely weak. Today I had blood tests run and am about to go have an abdominal ultrasound done. I am at work but need to be in bed. If I don't get a small burst of energy in the next hour I will go to bed.
2. Without really being able to share any details I do ask for major prayer for wisdom regarding a current situation that I am in that involves Matt and my ex. It has about gotten me extremely down and depressed but I am praying for God's strength and intervention into this whole situation. I am believing God to blow us all away and for Him to be glorifed in the outcome.
Thanks my friends and family.
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Bad Bad Blogger.............
Part of the problem is I FACEBOOK now so it is where I put my daily going ons. But, no excuse for not setting up time to do a quick hello.
We have had a super summer. River trips. Camping. Week in San Antonio with Tim. Lots of time at our place in the country. Watched the grandkids for a week with the exception of 2 days while Steph and Jimmy went to the Cayman Islands to celebrate their 5th anniversary.
Tim has spent the last SEVERAL months with a very, very busy travel schedule. He is gone most weeks (during the week) but home on weekends. It has been hard. I respect his job so much and understand but I don't like it. With all kids out of the house, when he is gone, it is a bit lonely. I'm adjusting I guess.
Football has started back.......Tim and I have had Texans season tickets for 3 years now. We love to go and tailgate with our friends and go cheer on our Texans. Unfortunately they are starting out too well, but hopefully that will change.
I've been home this entire week with the weirdest stomach bug. Absolutely no fever but have lived with the constant feeling like I am going to throw up down to the mouth watering. I threw up several times Monday and the beginning of this but none since. I have absolutely no appetite but have no issue with drinking fluids and keeping them down. There is a part of me that wants to get back to work tomorrow and then scared because today I was feeling a lot better then took a shower. It wiped me out so bad. So, I guess I'll just have to see.
Matthew is in 8th grade this year which is so hard to believe. He is on the 8th grade football team and is doing well. He plays defensive end and has had a few good quarterback sacks!!! That's my boy! He is doing much better this year......grades, school, etc. Makes me a happy Mama.
Shannie started her sophmore year at Sam Houston this fall. She is renting a townhouse with 2 friends and is enjoying college so much more having her own place vs. the DORM. She is doing well and I am very proud of her and happy she is experiencing it all!!!
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Has It Been 2 Months.........?
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Random stuff.................
Random catch up.
Left Friday, 4/3 for Ft. Worth and the NASCAR race. Awesome weekend and birthday! We got to stay infield in the Dewalt hospitilatiy section and enjoy a totally different view than ever before. You really don't see the race track well in the infield but it was fun. They had food and drinks going all day so that was nice. We did get to do the garage tour which was fun. So CLOSE!!!! We also could walk to each end of the track and be up close to the sight and SOUNDS!!!
On Saturday, 4/4, my birthday Tim had to run meet a co-worker who gave us a couple of extra tickets. He came back with my bday present. I love it. The back says National Guard across it. For my non-NASCAR friends, Dale Jr. drives for National Guard so it is my favorite new fun jacket.
Here are the handsome "Gannon Men"
Here is a picture of Matt Kenseth's car who drives for Dewalt and we were cheering on as well at the race, after Dale Jr. of course.
And the car I was cheering on all day!!!!!!
I love CAMARO's, always have, always will. If you saw the movie Transformers you saw BumbleBee which was the proto type of the new 2010 Camaro. I will own one of these some day soon. The pace car was the new camaro. Isn't she a beaut???
Then, we actually got to meet Matt Kenseth.
And here is my autographed pic from him!!!! It says, "Happy Birthday Kim". How did he know??????
It was a fun birthday weekend.
Last weekend, 4/10 - 4/11 was very nice weekend as well. We stayed home all weekend. Worked in the yard. Worked in the house. Matt came over for the weekend so we just enjoyed family!
Easter was nice. Went to church and then just chilled at home. I loved being home for the first weekend in over 6 weeks. Felt so good.Life is slower. And I'm lovin' it!!!!
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Thank YOU Ricky and Tanya...........
Ricky is a huge Kyle Busch fan and loves to throw it in my face. I mean loves to (this last race in Vegas we were at a club Friday night and he pulls out of the back of pants/which he had been hiding a miniture Kyle Busch standup to sit on the table with us)!!!!! Here is a picture from last Phoenix race with him kissing (or licking) on Kyle Busch stand up in the grocery store.
Anyway, Ricky called me yesterday and said he wanted to run my birthday present to me at the office since Tim and I will be out of town on my birthday Saturday. He said he and Tanya were bringing it over.
I realized it was April Fool's Day and just knew that he was bringing me some sort of gag gift such as a life size stand up of Kyle Busch or something. He is second behind my Tim in practical jokes so I didn't have a clue on what to expect.
My office is close to the front door so I heard them come in and ask for me. I got up and started walking up front when I see Tanya standing there with a big smile on her face and Ricky peeking around the corner. I really didn't know what I was about to see.
I turned the corner and found the most incredible, thoughtful and wonderful birthday gift. I am still blown away by their gift. It means the world to me.
If you can't make it out, it is an AUTOGRAPHED Dale Earnhardt, Jr. T-shirt with a picture and ticket from last Phoenix race we went to. When we were at the race we were in the Raceway Club and Tanya won the shirt in a door prize drawing. I have to say I was jealous of her gift but also glad she won something. SO, she gave up her gift and she and Ricky had it very nicely matted and framed for my birthday! I LOVE IT AND AM SO GRATEFUL FOR IT AND FOR DEAR FRIENDS!!!!! Thank you Ricky and Tanya.Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Cook-off Weekend Fun and Successful..............
We did the Animal House Toga Party theme this year vs. the Saloon/western theme we have done last 2 years. It was fun to see so many people coming out in their togas!!!
Tim and his cook-team cooked enough food to feed approximately 2,000 people. Tim is really proud of the new pit that he, Dustin and James (from work) plus some of James' crew built. It still needs some accessories added but it cooked good.
We have the Texas Race this weekend and I will officially be jumping off this 500 mph ride I have been on since the end of February!!!! Ye-Haw!!
Well, here are some pics from the weekend.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Rodeo.....DONE.........
WE are officially through with Rodeo. It is over. Finished. Done. I'm glad. We are tired. It was fun. BUT, it is a lot of work and 2 days out of every 3 for 3 weeks will wear on you big time.
I really love volunteering for such a worthy organization. For the past 76 years the Houston Livestock Show and Rodeo has given over $235 million dollars in scholarships to students in Texas. It is wonderful to read stories and testimonies from the students. Check out the HLSR website http://www.hlsr.com/
My favorite shows were Rascal Flatts, Trace Adkins, Brad Paisley tonight, Josh Turner, Keith Urban and Gary Allan. Gary Allan was probably my top. He put on an awesome performance! My parents were in town all last week for Spring Break. They joined us Tuesday night for the Keith Urban show. It was fun.
Shannon was home for Spring Break the week of the 9th. She went with us to several shows and it was great having her home though didn't get to spend much time with her! Matt was off last week and spent most of the week at our house which was awesome!
On the 15th Stephanie and Jimmy were in the 31st St. Patrick's Day parage on 1960. Shan took Kenzie and JD, along with my folks, Matt and my nephew Justin. They had a blast. Tim and I were working rodeo that day. Anyway, a photographer from the Chronicle was there and ended up taking a pic of Shan and Kenzie which ended up in the paper last week. Cuties!
Now, we are full gear into our cook-off this Friday and Saturday. It will be a crazy week but looking forward to it. Tim and a few guys here at work built a new pit which will feed about 1,500 people in one cooking. It is massive. Tim has been wanting one for some time and he finally got it. It should make this cook-off easier on the cooks. This year our theme is a Toga Party - should be fun. I'm sure I'll have lots of pics to post next week.
Well, mainly just checking in and letting you know we survived RODEO. Hopefully, we'll get through this week too!!!! I'm hangin' on for dear life!!!!!
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Weekend Wrap Up.................
We're home. Life revs up a huge notch as my team opens rodeo tonight. Oh, what a month ahead!!!! Why do I do this to myself every March? I know if I didn't, I would miss it!!!! I'll just hang on for the RIDE!!!